We Are A Curious Species

© Danise Codekas 2013, All Rights Reserved

 

Even with all the awareness we think we are amassing, few are ever complete. There is always more work to do even at the most amazing moment of your life.

I believe we create our own pain, joy, suffering and love in our lives, by ourselves. If you miss the opportunity to express your surprise openly, at a wonderful, unplanned meeting which arises  before you, you may re-seek it the rest of your life.

Usually, we burn ourselves out after a few years or searching for something that held us in the first moments. We forget that smile with the smiling eyes, the voice which enchanted us, and drew us into a reality, more real than any of our current life moments. Love arose before you, and you let it depart, and back out the driveway.

You will seek for it, for a few weeks, months, maybe.  If you are diligent,  years,  hoping to be in front of a person, who took your breath away, and enmeshed you in their energy immediately.

Madness, utter madness and the most delicious memory of your life. Surprise. Who is that person? How can you find them again?

Where are you? Who are you. Thanks for the wakeup call. Zing.

A man with a patch over his eye, standing in a driveway with friends, smiling, twinkling eye, gazing. So intriguing a memory,  on a chilling, Saturday evening in the Pacific Northwest, with no Butter Pecan ice cream in the house. Guess I'll head down to Albertson's.

Saw Christmas lights all over Gig Harbor, Olalla, Poulsbo. Even AL’S store put them up, winding strings of twinkling lights around the gas pumps. Nice. The extra twelve cents a gallon is worth it.

I love the holidays, when magic appears because everything is so scintillating.

I shall find a writing studio, on someone's private land, for 6 hours a day. It needs right atmosphere and silence, except for my music.

That's what I want for Christmas. A Writing Place.

 

Think I can get a New Year's Eve date? There must be a twitter site for people who want a date for New Year's Eve.

We are a curious species. I am a curious and sparkly soul.

Ennui? Not Ever.

©2013 Danise Codekas

It is not amusing growing older. Some realizations about the Self, come far later in life, than you would hope. I am not saying these ah-ha moments, of my last 6 months of my life, were not appreciated; they were simply surprising given my current state of life.

My mind seems to be expanding as I jump around from place to place, in the latitude and longitude areas of the Earth.

Not sure if you understand. Some day you may.

Sensing disengaging from cruelty and brutality from many packets of the planet. Clearly, daily, reflections of what those words signify, we all are aware of as seeing them daily, soothes into our daily waking moments.

Sad, this infiltration of the worst of human nature. Sad there is too much of it.

I have seen so much bloodshed across my life, as we have all. Media and Technology are amazing aren’t they? Talking through air; and, sending bits and bytes across the wind are amazing things to see, in ones’ life.

I hope the things I leave behind are no longer needed for my next journey not because I ignored them, but that they served me well, and, I used them reverently.

As we age, so do our bodies. As we age, our minds expand. As we forget to do new things, we become old. Age doesn’t matter.

The next step is where? If people really were afraid to create challenges for themselves, I couldn’t live in such a presumptuous world. A world of ennui.

 

Looking At Vashon, One Fall Day:

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