Who You Are Now

© Danise Codekas 2013, All Rights Reserved

It is a bit too soon to decide how the year will end.

It has been an exhilarating ride, like falling over Angel Falls, knowing you are going to survive. You just have to ride it all the way down.

It has been almost 2 years since I needed to assemble a new life plan, as before, since the need to get back on the road reigns supreme in my mind, now.

3-4 months is just enough time to spend time with someone you are not that in tune with, acquainted with or friends with.

Any longer and the aurora of your true persona finally breaks through the social nicety you, and then,  people see your crazies and real self. Which is of course, why you chose to visit those people, at this time.

You are tired of the old self and who better than to push those buttons for you to drop your crap, than strangers, family and old friends.

Be prepared for some of those relationships to explode into smithereens. You chose this path to them and subconsciously seeking to shed the person who wanted people to believe you were and all along knowing you had never been real, with them, ever.

You just did not have the good manners to tell them at the time, as you were amazed to find out their purpose in your life had dwindled, perhaps years ago. Let It Go, Friends. There’s no turning back once you let it go. These people disappear quickly down your jet stream.

Just Over Colorado Border In The Utah Snow

© Danise Codekas Photography, 2013

 

Sometimes, nature can get you there, to that release of the tired, uninspired person you believe you have become quickly. Especially Violent Nature which unexpectedly comes into your journey’s way and sends you off in another direction, quickly.

If you had paid attention, you would have traveled to wherever you were headed without knowing it, anyway. Things Change, Always. Accept that Universal Truth, blindly, and you could live a content life. Or a really miserable one, too, given the vicissitudes of emotions.

Mutability is highly underrated on the road, or life, for that matter. Hence, a need to move, change and develop into that which you are becoming within the scenes you create in your daily life, arises and you either go with it or get an ulcer fighting it. Eventually you will move toward it, if that’s what your soul is screaming for, however, of course, you could die before you get to shed your inutile skin a become who you are now.

“Whatever else has been said about me personally is unimportant. When I sing, I believe. I'm honest.” - FRANK SINATRA, quoted in And I Quote

Montserrat by Danise Codekas

©2013 Danise Codekas, All Rights Reserved

If the very impression one gets is that there is some type of retirement from life, as you know it, when you begin noticing the skin on your hands finally shows your age, you'd be either stupid or lazy.

Assuming your neither, then you know how hard it is to stop doing something you are addicted to and, at this point in my life, I have surrendered to my addiction to writing books, poetry, diaries or autobiography.

I thought a point would come where it became less important to write, as my need to impress, or make a mark, lessened in importance over the decades.

I was wrong, of course. Some of us burn out late, rather than early. Some of us kick into higher gear as we age. Nothing new.

If I need to get up and write from 12:42 am until whenever, there is nothing blocking tomorrow morning’s rising from arriving at 10 am, instead of 6 am. 6 am is a time I generally arose at for many years working for someone else.

As a writer, I appreciate my new life style, as a Writer, Photojournalist and planet Earth resident.

So many people are no longer in my life. Thank God, for many gone; and the others I miss engaging with at whatever nefarious and amazing ideas were twirled around between us, during our time together.

Jeeze, it has been a good life, for me. I feel so free. Like I am going to explode with the peace inside me. It won't last for long, it never does. Life changes too quickly and you never know what you are going to walk into next. Amazing, isn’t it?

Even Death. Although, I am sure since I don't appear to be dying yet, when and if my time arrives to cross over, will try to maintain an amazing outlook on the process.

I will never experience it again, and can;t imagine what it going to be like or what type of last minute karma I'll be burning off during the process I have earned this lifetime and created for my transitory means to an End. Life is an adventure, to the End.

I am going to  Montserrat soon and only because I have never been there before. I want to see the mountains and love Benise's song, Montserrat. You think a photojournalist is led into new places because of the beauty?

I must have both the beauty and the music of the place, before I lift the camera. I understand what pushed me into Joyl when I travel, or when I breath.

Just kick off every trip off with Benise's Carnaval from the CD, Nights of Fire. You will get in the proper frame of mind for the busy airport, waiting at check-in, or not. Sitting in a wine bar, headphones blaring Carnaval.

It, your airport experience becomes a fabulous adventure, even if you are flying into Hell, or are waiting in Standby Hell. 

“May all Beings, dwell in equanimity, free from attachment and aversion.”~Buddha

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