Extremities of Courage

© 2012 Danise Codekas

“Absence diminishes mediocre passions and increases great ones, as the wind extinguishes candles and fans fires.”--Francois de La Rochefoucauld

Well, did you think it was going to be easy slipping over the edge into 2012? Personally, I did not think about it until my life and the lives of those around me starting intruding into a quiet, well manicured life, which we all seemed to deluding ourselves about for some time, it appears.

“No human being will ever know the Truth, for even if they happen to say it by chance, they would not even known they had done so.” ---Xenophanes

Not sure what you are about now, however, given the tragic events which encompassed universal notoriety during the past few months, my guess would be energetic seeking of your new private dream, scooping up the detritus of last year’s screw ups, which you so denied meant anything at the time you screwed up.

The immediate understanding, at the moment of impact, the results of the words, actions and masks you wear for us, out here, as you hide, still, the results of behemoth attempts, to become that which you are not feeling, you can become, as your soul screams out for you to become and grab onto those things you really want, really are, now.

Really, what do you want? If you know, this is the time to go get it. Banging your head on the seashore is getting old, when you want to let go of the familiar and move into the unknown horizons, which you close your eyes to because you do not deserve them; you have not suffered enough, completed enough penances, paid enough in pain and loveless lifetimes.

“I didn't have anybody, really, no foundation in life, so I had to make my own way. Always, from the start. I had to go out in the world and become strong, to discover my mission in life.”--Tina Turner

Guess what? No one cares. No one is asking you to get on your knees and beg forgiveness, pay a price, or deny yourself dreams, or even explore illusions which you were so frightened of, so sure something or someone was not real, yet you never reached out to touch, or ask, or journey to discover.

“If you just set out to be liked, you would be prepared to compromise on anything at any time, and you would achieve nothing.”-Margaret Thatcher

No one cares, since everything you have now, or do not have, has been your choice. You and I both live in a free will universe. Everything you are now, is what you have chosen to be, and I am not asking you to pay a price or penance for what you have done, since, should we meet, all those experiences from the moment we look in one another’s eyes, are who you are in that present moment.

“You take your problems to a god, but what you really need is for the god to take you to the inside of you.”--Tina Turner

We may not connect; or, we may. Regretting that which you fucked up, in the past, yesterday, does it affect you today, this moment?

If that which you have desired ,your entire life, is offered you, right now, and you turn from it, because you do not believe there are other humans who are compassionate,  and understand that there is only serendipity and random synchronicity, which has import for a meeting to have taken place, between you?

There are grander, cosmic themes in our lives, in 2012, only because the lessons and clarity you received last year, is going to be put into action this year.

If you sit on your hands, and don’t make the phone call, run away and hide somewhere, bury yourself in excuses to not explore that which has laid festering in your soul, for a few years, because you lacked courage to pursue someone, something, then your life will be less than it could be.

“It pays to know the enemy - not least because at some time you may have the opportunity to turn him into a friend.”--Margaret Thatcher

You are not going to die if you pursue someone or something which you know impacted you with FORCE. How many people in your life affected you like that? How many ideas, have sat in your soul for years, which you keep smothering, keep pushing down into that dark corner of soliloquys,  enamored of its own voice, and passionless fears?

Pathetic? Is this a word you can ascribe to an attempt to touch someone, work for something, create something, in the past few years which you, still, to this day, are still castrating yourself over?

“Nothing is as important as passion. No matter what you want to do with your life, be passionate.”--Jon Bon Jovi

Either connect, create, or be afraid for another year, another minute. Free-will universe is where you and I both exist. Together.

So, perhaps, a fool, I appear to be. Perhaps, a woman who speaks in circles and confusion, from a mind and heart that is tired of self-created mindlessness, which created loneliness, confusion and fire and rain, all of which seemed to block out the truth, I hid, inside.

If you could walk out that door, right now, without any consequences to your livelihood, or structured relationships, to see and talk or examine that person or situation which you desire the most, or fly to get the answer to a question, from someone, which you have thought about for days, years.

Call someone and ask the questions, without fear or reprisals, if you had a no-impact universal free-pass, would you go, call, try? This is what 2012 is all about. Your opportunity to reach clarity and recognize lies and truths. No more masks are needed to pretend, to hide who you are and what you want.

Why not act from depths, rather than fears?

“Power is of two kinds. One is obtained by the fear of punishment and the other by acts of love. Power based on love is a thousand times more effective and permanent then the one derived from fear of punishment.”--Mohandas Gandhi